did you think I was going to say "life"???
come on, now.
I'm not that lame.
I'm looking forward to a drama-free week.
or at least a week where I don't try to die quite so often.
I remember a time...
somewhere in the foggy past,
when I was witty and/or interesting.
I feel like I've stepped into a black and white film.
everything's in shades of greys, lately.
I worry that I'm going to become Stepford Wife-like.
I don't really belong here.....
not in this Utah world where such high importance is placed on appearances.
I don't belong in a place where every house looks the same.
and I don't belong in a place where every hair must be in place.
I'm probably freaking myself out about nothing.
I can still be me.
It just doesn't feel natural, being here.
Utah is a big fat ball of fake.
So I should just focus on something else, right?
I'll focus on the things that are important to me.
It'll be fine.
yes, I've always felt that way about Utah, in case you're wondering.
I have never felt like I belonged here.
It's a good place to be.
and I'm happy.
I just worry that I'll turn into "one of them" if I don't keep a sharp eye out.
that's what I was trying to say.
aren't you glad it took me half a page to make that point???
I'm really losing my edge, here.
I am really--
I forgot to eat breakfast!!
maybe that's why my head feels like a bowl of sand.
I will eat, then go to the gym,
then I'll write something else.
I can't believe it's March tomorrow.
happy last day of february!