in case any of you failed to notice....

it's summer.
and i suppose this is a good thing.
for the most part.
i even don't entirely hate how i look in my new swimsuit.
but the heat i could really do without.
and the people.
of course, they're here in the winter too.
but if i could find a way to trick them all into moving away...
aahhhh....
life would be grand.

okay.
it's a new season, so it's time for a whole new blog.
i'm going to start talking about politics and the environment.
i'm going to start writing each post carefully--from the punctuation right down to the syntax.
i'm going to thoughtfully plan out each post and do research, including links and pictures.
hm.
i was trying to be funny, but now i'm just depressed.
i'm really not even remotely interested in doing any of that, so don't worry--i won't.
but writing it still made me feel sad.
or pissed off.

oh yeeeeeeee haaaaw!!
looks like the garbage truck was just late today!
i thought we had missed it, but i wheeled the damn thing out anyway.
and there is the rumble of the truck....
life is so unexpectedly beautiful sometimes that i just want to cry.
(again with the trying to be funny resulting in depression.)

i know i whine about this a lot...
but i don't have anything to say.
come on girl--think.
this room is so uninspiring, that's what i'll blame it on.
but blame or no blame--i am empty.
dried up.
i've been thinking about taking some time off from this, to try to write something "real"...
but i doubt i'd actually get around to it.
on the other hand--my life is so damn boring that i fall asleep just thinking about it,
so what the hell do i expect to write about on here??
jesus.
i have tortured you people long enough.

i was in a shitty mood yesterday.
so i went shopping.
and you know what?
it's true, what they say--spending money does make you feel better!
i got the cutest little skirt and some shirts.
happiness is but a receipt away....

fun night at the bar on saturday.
fun day at the reservoir yesterday.
see?
and i have nothing to say about any of it.
it was nice.
yay for me.
...i guess i'm just a bit on the ornery side still.
are you guys all sick of my perpetual bad mood yet??
i sure am.
okay.
here's something--
at the reservoir, this couple and their little baby girl settled next to us.
and they just looked happy.
serene, even.
just content and full of light.
it was cool.
but sad, too, because it was so different from how most other couples look.
i realized that most couples aren't all that happy--not on a deep level at least.
i felt connected with them, knowing that i have that same happiness in my life.
i don't know.
i think i analyze strangers too much.
or smoke crack too much.
well, yeah, definitely that.

aw crap, it's almost time to go get my babysitter.

well, i do truly apologize for wasting your time today.
and tell me to quit whining.
or to buck up.
or fuck up---
which reminds me!
i finally saw Kill Bill vol 1 last night.
yes, i'm the last person alive to see it, bite me.
loved it.
including the gore.

have a great hair day.